Mood: contemplative  Music: It's All Too Much - The Beatles  Reading: World War Z & Citizen Girl

It’s been quite awhile, hasn’t it? Just trying to get over my crimson wave and its associated drama. I’m feeling much better and ready to do stuff.

I’ve been thinking a lot about what my future holds lately.

As you know, I am graduating from college next spring, if all goes well. I applied for grad school at the beginning of the month as well – which no one but the readers of this blog know about. So please to not be sharing. If I don’t get into grad school, it won’t be the end of the world but I would like to keep it on the DL, in case I don’t get in.

I have also been researching my options at work. Hopefully when we come back from our winter shutdown, they’ll post the second full-time lead position again. I have been encouraged to apply for the position by pretty much everyone at work, supervisors and co-workers alike. They know – as well as I do – I am more than capable of being the second lead.

In my current position, I do everything a lead does. I have a natural inclination to lead to begin with, because 1) I’m bossy (haha), and 2) because no one else is willing to stand up to the plate. I don’t get involved with the petty shit that goes on because I keep to myself so much. But it’s come out quite often how childish the people I work with truly are. And if they have to answer to me, they’ll have to deal with it.

The pros are it’s full-time, I get insurance, and a set schedule. The con is that a full-time person may or may not lose their standing in order to make room for the full-time lead. But it’s everyone for themselves, if you ask me.

The only thing that was holding me back from applying for it when it came up again was school. Now that I only need 2 more classes, I am more than able to fit it into my schedule. If I can take an upper-division English class during the January term, I will take the class and apply for the position. I swore I wouldn’t take one because the classes are something like three weeks long so you basically cram a whole semester in that frame of time. Ugh, class schedule fail. There aren’t any upper-division English classes being offered for that term just yet. They’ll hopefully add one before the term starts.

However, there is a class called “Women and Literature” that meets once a week but really early in the morning. The only other option for me would be to do a strictly online course, which would totally work out. But so far, the classes are brick and mortar, and hybrids (classes that meet online & brick and mortar). If I have to take a class that requires me to be at work when it’s scheduled, I can use my 5 unpaid days off and whatever vacation I accrue from this year to attend the class.

I have to email the Liberal Arts & Sciences chair to talk to him about my French class. The more and more I think about it, I cannot take a fourth semester of French in a class setting. If he can somehow give me an option to take a competency test, I’m sure I can knock it out of the park. *crosses fingers* If not, I’ll have to suck it up and try not to fail miserably.

By the end of 2010, my car will FINALLY be paid off. A huge financial burden off my shoulders is so freakin’ awesome. I’ve been paying for my car loan for so long that to NOT have one to pay off will be weird, lulz. Then I can focus on saving a little bit of cash for emergencies, and paying off my damn credit cards.

And if I get the lead position, I will be considering moving out of my parents’ house for good. I promised myself that while I lived here I would finish school, and try and secure solid employment before I even thought about that. And what do you know? The pieces of this puzzle are falling into place. My credit score is pretty decent, all things considered. I know that will help when I get out and on my feet.

I’ve been looking at apartments near where we live now, and even condos. I’m leaning towards the condos even though they’re quite a bit of a drive from my parents’ home. I know my parents would want me nearby. Plus I would like to have that comfort blanket of them being so near. But if it works out that I can move there, then why not seize it? Right? Corinne did some filming there for a class she’s taking, and fell in love with the place. She might move there after her lease at her current place is up. I don’t want to seem like a copycat, so we’ll see. I just want out. It’s time to say goodbye.

I’m more than thrilled that this is all happening and that I have all of this to look forward to. I just hope that it does happen, and nothing major comes up like car repair, or a medical emergency, or anything like that. God forbid. *knock on wood*