Stand Up

Gill. 26. American. Filipina. College student. INTJ. Raconteur. Photographer. Fangirl. Gamer. Aurally fixated. Criminally mad at the world.

Happy Hour

Parachute

Rain on Me

Your train is running late and overdue
February 15th, 2010 4 comments

  
  Music: Wild Horses - Girls Aloud  Reading: Stuff for school

I’ve had a sharp, acute pain in my lower back for the past week or so. When I first noticed the pain, it was on the tail end of my 14 day straight work/school week, the one where I didn’t have any days off whatsoever. The one where I was the freakin’ Energizer Bunny because I had sooo much to do. I figured my body was simply mad at me and needed some rest and stuff. So I tried to take naps whenever I could. They didn’t help. I’d wake up more sore than when I went to bed. I didn’t pick up any unnecessarily heavy boxes at work or anything, so I knew that couldn’t have been the reason.

I woke up last Thursday and the pain had shrunk to my lower back. I figured it was cramps because I was due for my crimson wave this month and usually when I get pains back there, it’s because of that. What worries me is that the pain is still there, and no OTC medicines are working. I think I’ll schedule an appointment with my doctor tomorrow. Hopefully they can take me on the same day. I’ll cry if they don’t.

I hope it’s nothing serious. Ideally, I should’ve gotten it checked sooner. I’m not very good at preventative maintenance. I wait until something’s wrong to take care of stuff. I think that’s the American way though, lol. As such, it looks like I’ll be skipping school. I don’t think I could sit through class with this pain.

It feels like it’s fading but if I sit a certain way, or sit too long, or try and turn a certain way, it’ll twinge like I was getting poked with a pin and sort of “earthquake” through my lower back. I’ve had to stop and pause while the pain faded. Please God, don’t let it be serious.

Other than that, we’ve been so busy at work!! 3 shows are here this week, and aww man. That’s all I’m saying lol.

But all the drama at work is okay, because I took my sister and my nieces to go see “The Lion King” for Valentine’s Day. I got a 2 for 1 special. I know the girls enjoyed it, because from the moment they started the show, their eyes were glued to the stage. The only bad part was this dude sitting next to me, hogging up the arm rest. FAIL. lol. I kept leaning towards N the whole night, in an effort to get away from the guy. Ate M treated us to a late dinner at Denny’s afterwards.

They invited me to go bowling and see “Valentine’s Day” today, but I didn’t feel up to it. I felt like being lazy. Well, the pain too helped with that decision. I took a nap but my back was twinging at me while I got comfortable, so I don’t think I slept very well.

I’m going to make an effort to start exercising too. Even if it’s through a video game. I am going to start using “Just Dance” as my exercise method, lol. Hopefully there’s songs to unlock because I’d prolly start memorizing the dance moves after awhile. :) I want to get Wii Fit (not Wii Fit Plus ’cause I have the game, just need the board).

I need to get motivated. I have no motivation whatsoever. I mean, I’m winging it at school right now. I don’t like that. I’m trying to break the habit of sleeping in too, by setting things on my calendar with alarms. I’ve slept through a few of them. Yuk.

I’m too complacent about my life right now. I need a swift kick in the bum to fix that.

Help.

?: “What do you do to get motivated?

The tide is high but I’m holding on
February 2nd, 2010 2 comments

  
Mood: indescribableindescribable  Music: The Tide is High - Billie Piper  Reading: Stuff for school, Game Informer

I have a LOT to say so I think I’ll put everything behind a cut. Be prepared, this is sort of a cathartic entry. So much has happened in the last few days.

Some good, some bad, all me. ;)
Read the rest of this entry »

Don't be so quick to walk away
October 19th, 2009 Comments Off

  
Mood: contemplativecontemplative  Music: It's All Too Much - The Beatles  Reading: World War Z & Citizen Girl

It’s been quite awhile, hasn’t it? Just trying to get over my crimson wave and its associated drama. I’m feeling much better and ready to do stuff.

I’ve been thinking a lot about what my future holds lately.

As you know, I am graduating from college next spring, if all goes well. I applied for grad school at the beginning of the month as well – which no one but the readers of this blog know about. So please to not be sharing. If I don’t get into grad school, it won’t be the end of the world but I would like to keep it on the DL, in case I don’t get in.

I have also been researching my options at work. Hopefully when we come back from our winter shutdown, they’ll post the second full-time lead position again. I have been encouraged to apply for the position by pretty much everyone at work, supervisors and co-workers alike. They know – as well as I do – I am more than capable of being the second lead.

In my current position, I do everything a lead does. I have a natural inclination to lead to begin with, because 1) I’m bossy (haha), and 2) because no one else is willing to stand up to the plate. I don’t get involved with the petty shit that goes on because I keep to myself so much. But it’s come out quite often how childish the people I work with truly are. And if they have to answer to me, they’ll have to deal with it.

The pros are it’s full-time, I get insurance, and a set schedule. The con is that a full-time person may or may not lose their standing in order to make room for the full-time lead. But it’s everyone for themselves, if you ask me.

The only thing that was holding me back from applying for it when it came up again was school. Now that I only need 2 more classes, I am more than able to fit it into my schedule. If I can take an upper-division English class during the January term, I will take the class and apply for the position. I swore I wouldn’t take one because the classes are something like three weeks long so you basically cram a whole semester in that frame of time. Ugh, class schedule fail. There aren’t any upper-division English classes being offered for that term just yet. They’ll hopefully add one before the term starts.

However, there is a class called “Women and Literature” that meets once a week but really early in the morning. The only other option for me would be to do a strictly online course, which would totally work out. But so far, the classes are brick and mortar, and hybrids (classes that meet online & brick and mortar). If I have to take a class that requires me to be at work when it’s scheduled, I can use my 5 unpaid days off and whatever vacation I accrue from this year to attend the class.

I have to email the Liberal Arts & Sciences chair to talk to him about my French class. The more and more I think about it, I cannot take a fourth semester of French in a class setting. If he can somehow give me an option to take a competency test, I’m sure I can knock it out of the park. *crosses fingers* If not, I’ll have to suck it up and try not to fail miserably.

By the end of 2010, my car will FINALLY be paid off. A huge financial burden off my shoulders is so freakin’ awesome. I’ve been paying for my car loan for so long that to NOT have one to pay off will be weird, lulz. Then I can focus on saving a little bit of cash for emergencies, and paying off my damn credit cards.

And if I get the lead position, I will be considering moving out of my parents’ house for good. I promised myself that while I lived here I would finish school, and try and secure solid employment before I even thought about that. And what do you know? The pieces of this puzzle are falling into place. My credit score is pretty decent, all things considered. I know that will help when I get out and on my feet.

I’ve been looking at apartments near where we live now, and even condos. I’m leaning towards the condos even though they’re quite a bit of a drive from my parents’ home. I know my parents would want me nearby. Plus I would like to have that comfort blanket of them being so near. But if it works out that I can move there, then why not seize it? Right? Corinne did some filming there for a class she’s taking, and fell in love with the place. She might move there after her lease at her current place is up. I don’t want to seem like a copycat, so we’ll see. I just want out. It’s time to say goodbye.

I’m more than thrilled that this is all happening and that I have all of this to look forward to. I just hope that it does happen, and nothing major comes up like car repair, or a medical emergency, or anything like that. God forbid. *knock on wood*

I've got 10 minutes!
August 9th, 2009 Comments Off

  
Mood: tiredtired  Music: Some documentary on Animal House  Reading: Watchmen

The Cab show was amazing! Loads of energy and I think I discovered a new band, Eye Alaska.

Review to follow on Kiss My Sass, pics to be uploaded to Facebook.

?: “Been to any good live shows lately?




Futurama: Fry & Leela