Emotional bubble has burst

Mood:

awake Music: Swan Lake - John Hollingsworth & London Symphony Orchestra Reading: The Edible Woman

I hate Ranty McRantFace blogs like my previous. I do feel better though. I love raging against the machine in my blogs. Because once it’s on paper (so to speak), it’s out of me. I don’t think blogging diminishes those feelings because they’re real and true. I was angry. Still am. I’m patiently impatient about the state of things in my life right now. The pain aches and it’ll never go away until I find my passion. But there is a time for everything. I wish it was sooner, that’s all.

I think I need a spiritual/emotional retreat of some sort. I’d love to get away for a day trip to Red Rock. THe priest at Christ the King recommended it when we went to Ash Wednesday mass this year. We’ve been having really nice weather. I could pack some lunch, take my car and Nikon out, and unwind. Journal what I see, feel. Connect with God. Commune with nature and all that. Get away from this city’s burdens. Y’know, I put some unpaid time off in this week. I’ll be taking Sundays off in March. Maybe I’ll plan one of those days to escape. Probably after midterms though. I need to focus on that.

So where did all this clarity comes from? Remember when I was freaking out about my catalog changing? Well, it’s official, and the load has been lifted off my shoulders. I got word today from my advisor that I can walk across the stage. FINALLY. A culmination of blood, sweat, tears and headdesking… all for the formality of the walk. And having my family and friends there will be epic.

The only caveat is that I have to try and sign up for French 212 again. There’s no way to get around it. Damn damn damn. I’m worried now because the job I have now is inflexible about schedule changes. Once you have a set schedule, that’s it. They offer no leeway whatsoever to accommodate something like school. So it looks like I’ll be looking for another job on top of everything else. I don’t want to leave, but if I have to, I will. My education is important to me. Even if it’s just this one class, I’ll leave.

Maybe I can take the class online somewhere? That might be easier.

However, I really should try and get some sleep. But I needed to get this out.